urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:no1sealno1sealno1sealno1seal2004-12-08T16:53:53Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:no1seal:792Sorry2004-12-08T16:53:53Z2004-12-08T16:53:53ZSitting in silence...thinkingI have done something that has hurt those closets to me, which are my friends. To be brief I told a lie to most importantly my friends and to myself. It hurt someone particularly important to me. The lie was something I made up as an excuse to keep myself from going out drinking with my friends who have been bugging me about not going out with them. And now the result, is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me is now gone and I don't think it will ever come back. Now all that is left is grief, sorrow, and shame. I know now that it has caused more harm than good and for that I am truly sorry. I say this from the bottom of my heart. And I get down on my knees and ask those I have hurt for forgiveness especially Sarah and Bethanna.<br /><br />I’m Sorry...urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:no1seal:684I WIN2004-11-17T03:14:42Z2004-11-17T03:14:42ZCold Hard BitchI WIN! I finally won! Sarah gave up!urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:no1seal:449Life gets turned upside down for no reason!2004-11-15T06:13:18Z2004-11-15T06:13:18ZCold Hard BitchToday, i was in the same room as Bethanna for the first time in a long while and i couldn't find the words or the nerve to talk to her about what is going on. Being there made me think of the things that attracted me to her and how much it hurts. And afterwords i began to wonder y the good guy never seems to get the girl...it has happened twice now that the girl i like does return the feelings...i have always felt that i have been the good guy and never got the girl. Sarah believes that i am unable to enjoy the beauty of nature and maybe she is right. The natural beauty of the environment seems lost to me but the beauty of Bethanna will never be lost to me. <br /><br /><br />On a minor note i admitted to sarah the fact that she is right.